Christmas, comparisons, media and mental health - thoughts on having a more realistic Christmas this year.

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Internal comparisons

Do you have an internal picture in your mind of how your life ‘should’ be?

When you are feeling low, do you ever find yourself judging your experience as ‘not right’ and comparing it to how you feel you ‘should’ be feeling or what ‘should’ be happening?

By this I mean thinking thoughts like;

“Things should be different to this”, “I should be doing this”  “I shouldn’t be feeling this way”, “I should be able to cope”, “ I should be better at managing this” or even “I’m on holiday, I should be happy”.

As someone who manages depression, I often have to note and fight against my tendency to make comparisons and judgements about how I feel my experience ‘should’ be. This doesn’t often happen consciously, but takes place in the flow of automatic thoughts that run like a tape through my mind when I'm not really paying attention.

The comparison itself isn’t a very pleasant experience. It is made worse by the fact that thoughts like this can (often without us even really noticing) lead to further negative thoughts and judgements about yourself, the world and the future. This can lead to a downwards spiral into a low mood – one that you can’t work out where it came from or how to get rid of it.

“I feel low this morning”

“This is a really rubbish thing to be feeling”

“I shouldn’t be feeling low, everyone else is happy”

“What’s wrong with me that makes me feel this way?”

“Why can’t I ever just be happy?”

“Nothing is ever going to change”

What if you were able to catch yourself and stop yourself making those initial automatic comparisons? Instead of this downwards spiral making your negative mood more deeply entrenched, what if you could be more accepting towards your initial low mood? Instead of making things much worse by judging, comparing and trying to intellectualise your emotions, you could just try taking a positive action to help yourself feel better - or just wait for the experience to pass.

Learning to recognise and catch yourself when you start to feel this way can help you to prevent things getting worse. You can do this by accepting the initial feeling and giving it an opportunity to pass without trying to ‘solve’ it through thinking. Have a look at my Mindfulness series for more detail – particularly week two.

External comparisons

This automatic comparison is something that I do all by myself, without any external pressure - people who have or have had depression have a tendency for it. It’s also something it is really easy to do without recognising you are doing it, or even thinking about it. Before you know it you’re feeling low and you don’t even know exactly how you got there

But there’s more fuel for making comparisons these days than there has ever been before.  Now we also have the projected experience of others to contend with. Social media, particularly Facebook, gives people an opportunity to project the version of their life that most closely fits their ‘ideal’ to their friends, family and acquaintances. As well as having an internal image of how our lives ‘should’ be that we constantly and automatically compare to our actual experiences, we’ve got an external (although probably equally unrealistic) image of how everyone else’s lives are.  And from this point, the negative spiral of judgement to internal recrimination to anger, frustration and misery can be the same.

What do you mean you don't have a
jar of Christmas sweets at your house?

Christmas comparisons 

I was thinking about Christmas and mental health recently and it struck me that the Christmas season is a time when even people who don’t usually suffer from depression are much more at risk of the negative spiral that can be triggered by making comparisons.

Just look at the way the media, the shops and the advertising companies celebrates Christmas. For well over a month, we are bombarded with images and ideas about what the perfect Christmas should be.  As far at the media is concerned, no one is lonely, no families fight and everyone is cosily wrapped up in warm woollen knits. The most untoward thing that might happen is a teenager won’t wear his Christmas hat, or a mother gets slightly flustered over the turkey. Never mind though, everything is almost instantly resolved with a hug and a rueful look.

Day in day out over the Christmas period we are almost forced to make that comparison between our lives and feelings and what we’re being told they ‘should’ be.

And we often respond by trying to create that, and sharing our creations on social media, which makes us feel better about our experience. This picture of me in a woolly scarf drinking a mulled wine matches how things ‘should be’ at Christmas. Look, my experiences matches! Which in turn just feeds the external pressure that others are feeling.  As a society, we’ve created a story of Christmas told through our television screens, shop windows and advertising and kept fed through our own attempts to recreate it on social media.

But in fact, things are not that way. Experiences in those few weeks are as varied as there are people. No one experiences the ‘media’ Christmas. Things always fall short of that because that version of the world doesn’t exist. We are being forced to measure our experiences against something fake – and when they fall short, we can easily make ourselves feel worse by allowing that negative spiral of thoughts and judgements to get in.

I attended a course that taught me how to respond to the automatic comparisons and judgements that characterise depression. I thought that maybe there is something there that could help everyone during what can be a really difficult and challenging time.

This year, don’t let comparisons make you feel worse.

This year, have a real Christmas. It might not be great, it might be mainly a lot of fun, it might be totally rubbish – but however it goes don’t make it worse by letting yourself get sucked in to comparisons.

So what can you do?

Recognising it’s happening.

One of the most important things is recognising and catching yourself making these automatic comparisons.  Writing them down when you find yourself making them can help you to view them as intrusive thoughts rather than reality – and help you next time they start to catch hold in your mind. Recognise that it's a fantasy world being created and identify everything that is feeding into it.

If you find yourself scanning Facebook and feeling jealous or inadequate then you’re making comparisons and are at risk of that negative spiral. Remember that those people are representing their lives - in the same way that the media tells us the story of how we should be experiencing the season.

Adverts in particular are very insidious and a sense of how things ‘should’ be at Christmas can sneak its way into your brain however hard you are trying. Next time you see a Christmas advert, imagine them all made of Lego. This way it’s easier to recognise that they’re telling a lovely story, but that’s all it is, a story. Not seeing them as real humans can help prevent us from making these comparisons. 

Taking action

Recognising that you have started making comparisons and if you don’t stop they are going to make you feel low is a big step in itself. If you notice them taking hold, challenge them. Create yourself a mantra – “I’m not going to let myself get sucked into this comparison game again, I’m comparing my experience to something that doesn’t exist”. Instead, be gentle with yourself. Make yourself a list of things that give you pleasure, however small, and do one of those if you find yourself feeling low. Distracting your mind can prevent it from spiralling down.

Mindfulness talks about taking a ‘breathing space’ to stop that thinking and refocus your awareness on the here and now.

Prevention

This isn’t always easy, but there are things that can help you to keep a clearer head. For me, alcohol makes a massive difference. If I drink more that perhaps a couple of glasses on a night, I really notice its impact on my mood and ability to manage it a couple of days later. Everyone has to manage their own relationship with alcohol, hormones, food and sleep – but at least recognising their influence can help you regain control of that mind spiral.

In addition, the Mindfulness series I linked to earlier can give you some tools to help become more aware of both how your mind is acting and what actions you can take.

Have a real Christmas and an authentic New Year!

This Christmas enjoy any good moments and when you find things difficult, move away from making comparisons and be gentle with yourself. Try not to make it worse by letting yourself get sucked into comparing it with a fantasy. Good luck - and don't beat yourself up if you do find yourself making those comparisons more than you want to - we all do it and it is not an easy thing to stop!